I really feel like we've been doing what we should with this house deal. I know God's been in it all, and I have been listening to what He has to say.
That said, I'm now at an impasse.
We haven't locked a mortgage rate yet. A day or two before we had our offer on the new home accepted, rates jumped up 0.25%. We decided not to lock, thinking rates would go back down... and rates are now going up, alot. They are already another 0.25% higher, and it appears they will continue upward.
We can't really afford for them to be any higher. heck, we can't really afford for them to be as high as they are now... so what to do?
I'm having conflicting ideas on what God wants me to do. I've trusted him thus far, so I know that whatever happens - if we get a good rate, if we don't and have to back out, or even if we don't and also end up losing our current home - whatever happens, God is behind it.
But like I said, I am having conflicting ideas on what God wants me to do. I'm not really hearing Him well, and I'm concerned about making the wrong decision. I'm having "doubts".
Psalm 32 says:
"The Lord says, 'I will guide you along the best pathway for your life. I will advise you and watch over you.' - Psalm 32:8"
That's very comforting. But then it is followed up by:
"'Do not be like a senseless horse or mule that needs a bit and bridle to keep it under control.' - Psalm 32:9"
So then, God will guide me and watch over me, but I also need to not be senseless so that He has to physically force me down the path for my life. In other words, I need to play a role in the whole "acting" process by paying attention to His guidance, rather than making God always open and close doors to push me in the right direction.
So, this is where I'm frustrated. Do I lock a rate? "Common Wisdom" might suggest that I should... but is that what God wants me to do?
Do I wait and trust that God will "take care of it all for me"? This doesn't "seem" wise, and I know God wants me to be wise.
What it comes down to is that I'm not hearing Him.
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I am praying for you and Wendy...for a continued clear direction. For confidence and peace in the decisions you will be making. This is very encouraging to see how you both have walked through this process by completely putting your trust in God. Thank you for the great example.
Lord, please help David to hear You.
i've been challenged to treat my "alone time with God" as an actual meeting or relational time that could be reported back to someone else, much in the same way that i'd tell Josh about my phone conversation with a friend...so that in my time with God, I don't just expect Him to read my mind--just as I don't expect a friend to--but speak it and then ask God what He thinks about it--what I should do, just as I would to a friend. It's a little weird to me, still, asking into thin air, and waiting to see if anything pops into my mind that may be the voice of God--but I do it in faith, believing that God wants me to seek Him and hear from Him. And trust that I, His little sheep, WILL hear His voice. Wait upon the Lord. Keep believing that He wants you to know His will. Keep asking specific questions out loud. Keep waiting. He is a faithful friend and will not desert you.
Lolly... girl, that is exactly what we did last night before bed. It is a little strange, asking out loud and then waiting to hear God's voice. David heard, Wait. I did not feel like I heard a strong word either way, but even when I heard this morning that the rates went up again, I had peace about it. I am not sure of the timing and ending spot for all this transition, but I feel calm about it now. So we will continue to wait upon the Lord and keep asking and listening. Love you sis!
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